Bitter (Don't read if not in mood for my RANT)Isn't it strange how life's events change you? Mold you? The years go by and I've always thought of myself as a `good' person, but now I'm not so sure.
I have become selfish, neglectful, bored with everything, obsessive with some things....
I'm not gonna name names cause there are alot of people that this refers to - I am not the only one who has changed... People I thought I knew and were `special' to me have changed and become guarded, and unresponsive... But they ask, and TAKE and that's what hurts....
It seems everybody is out for their own gain, and I wonder were the love went...Especially when I see someone I THOUGHT I knew, bask in the glory of being popular and adoration and forget their old friends who ACTUALLY care... Well I think I'm letting go of that person - they have taken all I can give and now I am of no further use to them.
Why is it that to have a simple life you have to kick everybody down on the way up?
It's so sad and angering.... Yes maybe I'm envious - But I can't stand people like that- if they are so popular why bother with little old me? I'm letting go gracefully...... I may have to let others drift away also... something is missing and I fear it can never be repaired....
I HATE being the main attraction for 5 mins....then tossed aside... Don't put me on a pedestal just to watch me bleed and laugh at me.... I'd rather stay in the shadows and dream...
Hurt
Devious Comments
Also, I somewhat understand what you're saying and how you're feeling, but I absolutely don't think ur neglective or selfish. If you look at other people you're a saint in my opinion.
Im sorry if this didnt do anything for you. I hope you know that I feel for ya and hope you feel better
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Fall In Love,
Then It Ends,
This May Be My Very Lat Heartbreak
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Cherish your memories.... and keep your friends close to your heart
I'm sorry if I was one of them that hurt you. I know I didn't stay in very good contact with you..you tried and I didn't I'm sorry about that Clover.
Can you forgive me?
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-Im unique just like everyone else
-Campers: Natures way of feeding mosquitoes
-Theres are three types of people in the world: Those who can count and those who cant
*From a pamplet my friend had that the name seems to have slipped my mind*
This person has not tried really to get in touch....and strangely I'm not that bothered if they go on without me - Good luck to em.
Nothing to forgive Hun - Honest - No worries... Water under the bridge *Hugs*
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Cherish your memories.... and keep your friends close to your heart
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-Im unique just like everyone else
-Campers: Natures way of feeding mosquitoes
-Theres are three types of people in the world: Those who can count and those who cant
*From a pamplet my friend had that the name seems to have slipped my mind*
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Fall In Love,
Then It Ends,
This May Be My Very Lat Heartbreak
Look on the brightside, Clovey, you can't say that about everyone. You still have a lot of friends that love you and love roleplaying with you. Your posts mock the hell out of mine. Your plots are amazing and always fun and creative. Look at all the people who envy you. Don't drift away, hold on, things will get better soon. Trust me. Things can't be horrible forever. Your a wonderful friend, The best you can find in roleplaying, I'm sure in real life, Your an amazing friend! The ones who stick around for life. There's something we can all learn from you.
Thank you for your sympathy, and kinds words - I often despair that I am now uncared for...I don't know why...
Maybe being in the glory myself at one point has made me envious of peeps who have it now?
Thank you Star that has lifted my spirits alot.
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Cherish your memories.... and keep your friends close to your heart
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